We've got forever slipping through our hands. Behind darkness. Trapped. Separated. Lost. Void. So much allure resides in the world, limitless amounts awaiting exposure. Something dark keeps us separated from it, blinding us from the beauty. It infects us. Rots our brains. Distorts what we see. Twists us. We turn against ourselves. We disallow happiness and content, drowning and suffocating it with corrupt words and self-harm. We must be punished for not being enough...
Life...is it worth all of this?
What the fuck am I holding out for? More of this never ending bullshit?
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to die. Just end it all.
I wouldn't have to fight so hard, to stop chasing the impossible.
Just go to sleep...forever. Death would be easy.
Two weeks to prep for snowboard season <3
Gym tomorrow after work for a minimum of 2 hours.
Staying under 300 till Saturday.
Thank you all for supporting me
& making me smile